[Ah. Aha. There it is, yes — and for a few seconds, she just kind of sits and looks at what he's written, and finds herself a comfortable place to sit down and curl up where Arnold can sidle in next to her.]
Yeah.
It's like if creepy Kira-senpai showed up from back when we were in high school. I'd feel that way too.
[She's trying to talk him down, he thinks immediately, and he's angrier for it. He doesn't want to be talked down and he's typed most of a line he'll probably regret before he stops. Deletes it. Reads her words again.
... She definitely is, but not in a shitty way. So.]
u get it
u kno someone out theres going to be like noooo hes just a little kid but i dont care. u see the way hes talking to people
Yeah. People will say he hasn't done it yet but that doesn't make him a different person to you. Or make it so you can forget about what happened to all the people he hurt because of it.
It's kind of almost worse because you look at him and you don't think "oh, maybe there's a chance something will change, it'll go different." You just think, "I know what you're going to do in ten years, twenty years, you're going to ruin my life and you don't even have the decency to know it yet."
It's like looking at a bomb and knowing exactly when it's going to explode and kill you.
i dont even want to look at him if u really want to kno. id be ok with one hit n then forgetting abt him
[Not that that would work--but he feels like he can leave that part out and she'll know it anyway.]
i mean i kno thatd be fucking dumb like breaking his nose wont fix my dad or bring back my bro n i dont kno if they deserve but im not smart enough to think of anything better to do. hes supposed to be dead
how the fuck did u do this for yrs??? u have balls of steel
I thought about how my dad would've been waking up to go to work in just a couple of hours. What my mom had bought at the store to make for dinner the next day. How he saved me for last because he did all that just to get to me.
He didn't care about the project my dad was excited about finishing or the new recipe my mom was going to try. They weren't even tools for him. They were just in the way.
He hid under my bed and he told me "I've already taken care of your parents" and we didn't mean anything to him except his sick cheap thrill and that's why I decided I was never, ever going to stop until he was dead because I couldn't stand the thought that my parents were dead just so that some creep could get off.
I know that doesn't really help you decide what to do. But I understand how you feel, I think.
thats what i would do i think. so were both creepy n i can deal w/ that if u can
my dads been fucked up since i was a kid u kno. my bro didnt tell me shit and it didnt even matter because dad got fucked up after dio kicked it. i dont think he even knew me n keicho existed but now his smartass little kid self is asking me wat my name is like its a damn privilege to talk to him?? its bullshit
n ok theyre not that great but nobody gave a shit what happened to us for being a little bit not that great
I don't know. But I don't think people like that just wake up one day and do things like that. If he was dangerous as an adult he might be dangerous as a kid too.
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no im not fucking ok
[But also: where does he start. It's easier in text, at least.]
u kno how people come from the future n the past n shit around here? that kid grows up n fucks up my dad n ruins my fcking lifeso no
im gonna make him swallow his teeth
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Yeah.
It's like if creepy Kira-senpai showed up from back when we were in high school. I'd feel that way too.
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... She definitely is, but not in a shitty way. So.]
u get it
u kno someone out theres going to be like noooo hes just a little kid but i dont care. u see the way hes talking to people
so wat am i supposed to do
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It's kind of almost worse because you look at him and you don't think "oh, maybe there's a chance something will change, it'll go different." You just think, "I know what you're going to do in ten years, twenty years, you're going to ruin my life and you don't even have the decency to know it yet."
It's like looking at a bomb and knowing exactly when it's going to explode and kill you.
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[Not that that would work--but he feels like he can leave that part out and she'll know it anyway.]
i mean i kno thatd be fucking dumb like breaking his nose wont fix my dad or bring back my bro
n i dont kno if they deservebut im not smart enough to think of anything better to do. hes supposed to be deadhow the fuck did u do this for yrs??? u have balls of steel
[like really though.]
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Are you sure you want to know?
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He didn't care about the project my dad was excited about finishing or the new recipe my mom was going to try. They weren't even tools for him. They were just in the way.
He hid under my bed and he told me "I've already taken care of your parents" and we didn't mean anything to him except his sick cheap thrill and that's why I decided I was never, ever going to stop until he was dead because I couldn't stand the thought that my parents were dead just so that some creep could get off.
I know that doesn't really help you decide what to do. But I understand how you feel, I think.
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thats what i would do i think. so were both creepy n i can deal w/ that if u can
my dads been fucked up since i was a kid u kno. my bro didnt tell me shit and it didnt even matter because dad got fucked up after dio kicked it. i dont think he even knew me n keicho existed but now his smartass little kid self is asking me wat my name is like its a damn privilege to talk to him?? its bullshit
n ok theyre not that great but nobody gave a shit what happened to us for being a little bit not that great
so i think the world owes me a free fckn punch
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Just be careful, okay? You matter a lot, even if he doesn't.
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thanks tho. this place is total bs but im glad ur here
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Are you with Josuke right now?
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yea josukes here
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That's good. I'm glad you're with a good friend right now, I know it helps out a lot to have that. Being alone with those kinds of feelings is tough.
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listen if u need us for anything just ask ok? and dont take that little shit to the library let him work it out alone
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...So maybe I'll come by and see you guys sometime soon, OK?
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but sure whenever u want